life, work

09/26 – Day 308: Work + Passion = Happiness

There are those days that suck the happiness in me. There are those days that were too great. Today, I am positive after I go bruhaha of how crappy my yesterday was.

Oh well, we finally decided on our new work schedule… and it’s awesome. Weekends off!!! Yes! 12am – 9am — not bad at all. 🙂

I feel so guilty not able to help the new Red Cross Youth officers in their transition year. I guess it’s not easy to let go of something that has been part of your system and today I decided to go back to where my heart belongs. Thanks to my new schedule, I can balance work and passion. My work and my passion are not the same you know that’s why I feel so AMAAAAAZING that I can be working and then go back to my life as a Red Cross volunteer! 🙂

I am feeling the last quarter of the year work slump. Here I go again on thoughts of resigning and finally move to somewhere far away from my comfort zone and live the fast life. (Be careful what you wish for, I say.)

Am I ready? I guess I will if I really need to.

I am not saying my work is crappy. I learned to love it, or should I say enjoy it. I love working with people, enjoyed being with the SME team as we get along so well, I love doing those mentoring sessions especially if our scores show significant improvement. And I always say, one’s scorecard does not define him or her. Work performance can be behavioral, some just have personal problems to struggle, demotivation — just like me on random days and well — luck. Blah. I am tired of talking about work… it bores me. haha

Anyways, life is doing well right now. It’s okay, nothing really great is happening but it’s something one can be grateful of. I still don’t have a lovelife to boot but at least I am inspired. 🙂
But how long will I settle for less if I know deep within myself that I am made to be better than who I am today?

I know that my passion is in Red Cross, serving people, all the inspiring talks and leadership trainings bring sheer joy but I know in reality that it won’t provide the lifestyle that I want. Yes, it’s a noble decision to live serving others but then I also have a dream life that I want to live. Cars, a house and all the dream vacations… oh well.

Whatever makes me happy, I’ll go. I’ll choose later on if it’s the life I really wanted. 🙂

I want to be a volunteer again, I don’t know until when but I just want to be. My future seems to be jaded as of the moment especially of some plans. I don’t know if I am meant to stay or live away from Philippines. While there’s uncertainty on what the future brings, I’ll stay for a while and be that fish who swims together with the tide and let time and fate decides what will happen next. I decided to go back to where my heart is because I know it will help me decide on what I really want. At least I’ll bring great memories with me incase I will leave. (If I really need to leave… 🙂 )

I know some of my posts were a bit intriguing but I just don’t want to talk about it until every thing is A-OKAY.

Oh the hassles of citizenship issue and whatever, just the thought of it — confuses me.

Anyways, I am positive. This too shall pass — all the confusion, the daunting questions of self discovery and all the crazy things life has to offer… it’s all part of a grander plan.

Thanks Lord for a dynamic and crazy life I am living. I trust you and thy will be done. Whatever tomorrow brings, I’ll be there… with a wide grin in my face and arms wide open.

Live. Laugh. Hmmmm… LOVE. 🙂

college, journal, life

06/13 – Day 203: Reminiscing College

It’s our class picture in our yearbook… and yes the inspiration was so evident – Transformers!

I spent an hour recalling great memories I have in college and of course being with my original classmates since first year. Only few were left from our original section when we reached our senior year but of course we welcomed our new classmates wholeheartedly.

The quizzes, long test, term exams, exemptions, projects and everyday banters plus laugh trips made me miss college so much. I am not a perfect student… I skipped classes just to play left for dead on my senior year. I don’t listen if I don’t like the teacher or if it’s a terrible math subject. Yes, terrible — like Integral Calculus. It was a subject that I can say is one of the worst subject in my entire school existence that I have encountered. I never learned anything but I must say, I adored my teacher for his intelligence. He was really smart, I just don’t have time to absorb all those limits, derivations and those crazy drawings of x-axis and y-axis on the blackboard. I may be a bit slow in math but then I am proud that I never had a failing grade and I was not given a chance to repeat any subjects.

Computer Science was actually tough. Oh God, I spent nights coding my project just to make sure it will run. There are times wherein I succeed and times that I fail but of course there are times also that you need to ask for help to your classmates (It’s not cheating, we used to call it collaborative effort. ;)).

Most of the memories I can vividly recall was actually my days with the college yearbook and Red Cross Youth – one of the best club I joined in college. I was part of it during my first days in the university until the day I graduated. Every experience I had back then was actually worthwhile.

Overall, college life was awesome and I can say that it was actually better than high school. I miss school… 🙂

life, work

03/08 – Day 106: CYC Officers

Mural painting of Chapter Youth Council Officers 2010 – 2012

We are a crazy team together with our awesome vice chairs. I would surely missed our tandem. Here I go again by being sentimental but I am writing this one with a smile.

I will surely miss our boom moments, those crazy banters and shared laughter that is always happening when we’re together. The discussion of our plans, delegation of tasks and small arguments that we have every meetings. The mural painting shows our crazy personalities. Yep I keep on repeating the word crazy because we are really crazies. 😉

Someday, as we looked back from the past we will all smile for who we have become. I know that we know what we want to happen in our lives, our principles and strong values that we have lived, the leadership skills that we have acquired and the excellence that we have exhibited in everything that we do will surely go a long way. I know and believed that each of us will succeed in our endeavors as we have worked hard for it.

May our friendship lasts forever as I am happy meeting a bunch of awesome people who really made my stay in Red Cross worthwhile. To our advisers and previous CYC officers who have been so supportive, I personally thank you for being there to guide us and support our plans without any hesitations. Today, everything I doubted before surely made sense and I can say that this experiences I have really made me evolved as a better person. Who I am today is a product of what I have worked for and the challenges that I overcome. Thank you, thank you, thank you so much Lord for guiding me to the right direction and for helping me in making the right decision.

Siammo Tutti Fratelli! Always be in the service of humanity! 🙂

The moment we were bound to work together… March 2010. 🙂

Cabz, Mahal, Sha, Claire, Spyk, Jem, Ken, JF, JD, Liza, Acot, Toby, Popo, Carlo — CYC 2010 – 2012 now signing off. 🙂

journal, life

03/03 – Day 101: Chapter Youth Congress 2012

The experiences for the past 2 years was indeed worthwhile and something that I will cherished for life. It is the best decision that I have ever made to run and being voted by more than half of the delegates last 2010 but today, the journey ends.

I am not a hands-on officer due to my working hours thus something that I regret because I know I could have offered more. Today, I can say almost all of my doubts from yesterdays just made sense. Even if I am busy, I never gave up and still continued to be of help to my fellow officers. I will surely miss the bond that I shared with my crazy friends/officers and our vice chairs.

Maybe you guys are wondering what is this Congress I am talking about… well let me provide you a brief description.

During the Congress, we are tasked to amend our constitution and by-laws, report the achievements and milestones reached for the past 2 years and elect the youth officers who are tasked to serve and plan out activities to promote Red Cross in our society.

As we bid goodbye to our 2 year term, we thank the people who never failed to support us. The advisers and youth members who never failed to serve humanity and the youth leaders who never gave up despite the dramas that they have been through.

I would like to thank my fellow officers for understanding and for always being supportive with my endeavors. I know that I gained great friends that I promised to keep forever. We also appreciate the delegates, observers, advisers and National Youth Council officers who attended the congress. Anyways, before I get too sentimental, I’ll just cut it off and prepare another blog entry soon. 😉

I also made the tarp for the youth night which I designed without any creative inspiration but it looked fine though yet it did not match my satisfaction.

Anyways, the Chapter Youth Congress made my day awesome even if I am sleepless because I went straight to the venue right after shift.

More posts about Red Cross Youth memoirs soon! 😉

life, Uncategorized

03/02 – Day 100: Best Decision I Made

As far as I can recall, I have been a member since I was in my freshman years in high school but I am not really that active as I don’t participate in Red Cross Youth activities up to my sophomore year. It was indeed one of the best decision I made when I tried to join the Basic Leadership Training when I was in third year high school and I enjoyed it much that I’ve been an active member up to this very moment. The huge impact that training made was really great that I’ve been active for the past 8 years.

Red Cross is a humanitarian organization that caters the needs of the people especially in times of disaster and conflicts. Anyways, I am not here to discuss about Red Cross but I am here to share on how it made my life awesome. You can visit for more information about the organization. Please take note that Red Cross is more than just blood donation.

Ever since, I have been an active student and juggling extracurricular activities and academics were never been a problem for me. I never stopped being part of the Red Cross Youth from Ramon Torres National High School up to University of St. La Salle and even if I am part of the corporate world already, the fun never stopped. It was the best-est decision I made because I owe my personality and leadership skills to RCY. It made me value my life and myself more by engaging into different youth activities that will surely enhanced your character. I have done things I never did before. It made my school life so worthwhile and memorable. I met people from different walks of life and enjoyed my life more by appreciating what I have and there were a lot of experiences that humbled me. I salute the volunteers who have spent there time more in catering for the needs of others than their own family. The people I worked with, the friendship I made for the past few years was simply amazing. I met the best people and the best friends because of RCY.

Surely there is no noble heart than a heart of a volunteer! ♥

P.S.: I am out of words. geez! I’ll write more about soon… 😦