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03/24 – Day 10: The Heart of Worship

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Surrender. 

“Give yourselves to God… Surrender your whole being to him to be used for righteous purposes. ” Romans 6:13(TEV)

Surrendering should not be taken as a negative act. It is actually the heart of worship. It is how we submit ourselves for God’s glory without questioning his will. It is our in depth realization that God is love; fear, pride and confusion should not hinder us from completely giving in and living our lives for him and in him alone.

Trust. Trusting God is essential. You’ll never submit yourself into something you don’t fully believe in. Trust is when you finally know God and you let him into your life without doubts or hesitations. Love casts all fears. Learn to know how much God loves you so that you will trust him with your life.

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God love us as he gave us his only begotten son. Jesus died on the cross to show how much he loves us. “I love you this much! I’d rather die than live without you.” 

Surrendering to God gives us freedom and not bondage. It is a realization that God is our Saviour and not our enemy who’ll bring us harm when we surrender. Remind yourself all the time that you are not in control with your life. We aren’t God and will never be. The more you let God rule over your life, the more it will be meaningful. We all become persons who he intended us to be.

Smile, God knows better.

When in doubt of my life, I completely surrender all my worries, my doubts and my fears to God. With him, I worry less. I surrender to his will and wait for his plans to unfold in my life patiently. Surrendered hearts show up best in relationships. You don’t edge yourself out of the situation, you accept it all — whole-heartedly.

I always pray that God will never leave me in times of trials. I completely trust his power because he is God, he is beyond what I can comprehend. Giving into his will takes a lot of courage.

As what E. Stanley Jones said once and as published in the book: “If you don’t surrender to Christ, you surrender to chaos.”

Say YES to GOD!!! Nothing under God’s wing will result to chaos. Trusting him and his divine plan will result to a more meaningful life.

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03/23 – Day9: What Makes God Smile?

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Today, I am actually feeling crazier than I used to. It’s like feeling mad with actually no reason to or maybe just feeling a little annoyed by someone. I had great dreams for the past 2 days already, thank you Lord my comprehensive exam is over I can now focused back with my life and my work which I am no longer so interested unlike before. It’s not hell, it’s limbo… I am a troubled soul. All I want is to forget but how? How can I forget if where I am right now reminds me of a love I don’t think I deserve. The past week, I feel so free and I realized that it’s hard yet I am able to forget because I don’t see him, I don’t get to talk to him then I can be that cold person I used to be. I am normal not the person I am in the office. I am that dreamy person wishing that maybe someday he’ll change and be more mature but I guess I was wrong and I need to be totally awaken by my delusions. He is not willing to tell me those words I wanted to hear and actions are just mainly crappy because assumptions my dear is just the root of all fucked ups. Geez. I am sorry, this is just me. With this, I know I am not making God smile. I am so sorry, God. I am such a disappointment.

Moving on to my reflections on my ninth day in this spiritual journey, we all need to make God smile with the things that we do. There are 5 ways to make God smile. Here you go:

  1. God smiles when we love him supremely. 
  2. God smiles when we trust him completely.
  3. God smiles when we obey him whole-heartedly.
  4. God smiles when we praise him and thank him continuously.
  5. God smiles when we use our abilities.

Never cease to make God smile. Aside from loving a person, love God above all else because he rewards those who loved him with all their heart and soul. My life is a little bit jaded right now but I will completely trust God even if there are times when my life doesn’t make sense at all. I have this faith that if I lay all my plans to God, he’ll work it all out and do what is really best for me. I will just continue to obey his words completely and exactly. With God, I should have no rooms for doubts and regrets. I will also not stop on thanking God for bringing out the best in me all the time and enjoy what he has done in my life. I could never repay the goodness he have showered upon me.

Thank you and I hope I made you smile no matter how crazy I can be.

May the Lord smile upon you…” Numbers 6:25 (NLT)

Last request… Lord, while you are working on the succeeding chapters of my life, can you help me sort out my love life too. I wish to find someone who will be able to cope up with my madness. Open my eyes to the realities, I need you to help me out in my decisions. Thy will be done.

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03/22 – Day 8: Planned For God’s Pleasure

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It is true, we are planned for God’s own delight. He takes pleasure in everything that we do and we should also remind ourselves of that. God intended us to live in this world because not just he want us to glorify him alone but for us to take care of his creations. We should enjoy our stay on Earth and bring that enjoyment to God because that is our purpose. We need to worship God everyday. We need to thank him for our lives. Worshiping God do not necessarily mean that we sing it, that we go to the church every time but it’s about recalling God in everything that we do. It is not about music, not about a tune — it is a lifestyle. Anything that you do that glorifies God is an act of worship.

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03/21 – Day 7: The Reason For Everything

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Everything comes from God alone. Everything lives by his power and everything is for his glory.” Romans 11:36 (LB)

The glory of God is who he is. 

We are God’s creation an I must say that we should bring God the glory that he deserves. To whom are you going to live your life for? Is it for your dreams? I hope not. We live for a greater reason and not for just fulfilling our dreams alone. Believe, I won’t cease believing in you my God because I know that you know what you are doing. I want to continue to feel your presence in my every day life and continue to bless me with the wisdom that I need to understand that my life is meant for eternity and you are the ultimate reason why I exist. I will continue to believe and trust in your power. I will continue to worship you by never ceasing to thank you for all the blessings you’ve given me. My heart shouts all my glory to you and may your will be done. Let’s bring glory to God by worshiping him all the time, by loving his creations, by becoming more like Christ, by serving others with our talents and lastly by telling others that he exist, that he is God that loves. Now that you know the reason for everything, I hope that just like me you’ll live your life all for the glory of God.

Have a blessed Sunday everyone!

Note: Late post because I was not able to charge my laptop due to power interruption for 14 hours. 😦

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03/20– Day 6: Life Is a Temporary Assignment

This world is not my home yet.

Verse to Remember: “I am here on earth for just a little while.” Psalm 119:19 (TEV)

I am guilty of this though. I am breezing through life in pursuit of happiness, that maybe someday my life will finally actualized in front of me when every sorrows I endured finally makes sense but I guess it will never happen here on Earth. I should have remembered that I am living on borrowed time and I should not search for eternity on Earth because it eternity is when I am with God. I realized how wrong my mindset was after reading this chapter.        I should not be too attached because I will not be here for so long, I am just a guest task by God to fulfill his intended purpose then I will be joining him in eternity after my limited stay here.

God gave me challenges, dissatisfaction, incompleteness and unhappiness to understand that this is not the finish line yet, where we are right now is not where it will all ends. Our stay here is a prelude for something great, we are made for that.

My life on Earth is just a temporary assignment. My happy moments right now is not even half as what is in store for me in heaven. Realizing all of this made my perspective a little lot twisted and I am now more positive in dealing with every challenges I might encounter. Again, I thank God.

My fellow lost souls, we should never cease in appreciating what we have as of the moment. God entrust us with his works but we should not fall in love with it for so long as we need to go home to where we belong.

So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but n what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary but what is unseen is eternal.” 2 Corinthians 4:18 (NIV)

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03/19 – Day 5: Seeing Life From God’s View

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Life is all about test and trust.

Verse to Remember: “Unless you are faithful in small matters, you won’t be faithful in large ones.” – Luke 16:10a (NLT)

I must say that all I want in life is to travel, to be happy and simply enjoy it while I have it. Day 5 of my 40-day journey to a purpose driven life made me aware about viewing life through God’s eyes. I would certainly agree that my life is a series of test. God didn’t spare me when it comes to difficult challenges, challenges that I never thought I will be able to overcome. I did – thanks a lot to him because of my strong faith and belief that he will never forsake me during tough times. All the challenges were significant in shaping me for my own betterment. I thank him again because he did not give up on me and for the wisdom he endowed that aid me in fully understanding the things that have happen in my life. It was all for the greater cause and I must say, he never gave tests that one cannot handle.

“God keeps his promise, and he will not allow you to be tested beyond your power to remain firm; at the time you are put to the test he will give you the strength to endure it, and so provide you with a way out.”

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God is simply awesome, a life-saver.

My all-time favorite word aside from ‘chill’ would be ‘endure’. With God, I have endured life’s challenges and emerged victorious, strong and happy.

A piece of advice to the faint-hearted and the lost ones: “Always trust God and his amazing plans so just breathe and enjoy life. Take good care of the things around you, value the people who supports you and love the environment because all of them are part of what God have trusted you, his works. We should never break God’s trust.

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Sharing a self – reminder that moved me for years since the last time I read the Purpose Driven Life book: “Those who are trusted with something valuable must show that they are worthy of that trust.”

I don’t want to break anyone even God’s trust in me as much as possible because I know how difficult it is to be earned again once lost. I value people who shares to me their secrets because it is also a challenge for one to share a piece of themselves to others. I too am a person with trust issues and I rarely open up to people whom I don’t fully trust because that’s just simply how I am.

The challenge that we should always remember:

The more God gives you, the more responsible he expects you to be.”  — It’s just like that old cliché line of my favorite superhero… “With great power comes great responsibilities”.

Bon Nuit. I need to focus myself as tomorrow will be my comprehensive exam. TTFN.

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03/18 – Day 4: Made to Last Forever

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“This life is not all there is.”

I am scared of death honestly. I know that I should not be because my life on earth is just temporary and I should embrace the fact that someday I will be with our Creator and enjoy my life in eternity. I am afraid that I may not be able to check all the bucket lists I made someday. I know I will not die too soon because there are lots of things that I need to do first. This life we have though is just a preparation for something great. I need to constantly remind myself that my stay here will not last forever, that I should make use of my time right now to be who God intended me to be and that I should not be scared of leaving Earth because I am bound to experience a sense of belongingness and love after death because God will be there. He will be there for me no matter what.

God’s plans endure forever; his purposes last eternally.”

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03/17 – Day 3: What Drives Your Life?

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On March 20 – 21 will be my comprehensive exam and to be honest, that’s what drives me the most this week. 10 subjects in just 2 days. Oh my gee. I swear I am about to collapse as I can feel all the anxieties and panic surge. I am driven to finish my deliverables at this moment so that I can fully study except that my mind is currently jittering. Oh well.

Anyhoo, Day 3 of my Purpose Driven Life Journey focuses more on what drives us to exist. It helps us in answering the question about your driving force. What is your driving force by the way? Me, all I want is to finally check all my bucket lists and live a life full of purpose by being the person I am destined to be. Big statement? I know.

The book though listed five most common drives that we experienced:

  • Many people are driven by guilt.

I agree as I experienced this before. I did live my life haunted by the shadows of my past. I already wrote about it few years back but I am glad I was totally over it though it took me hell lot of time to forgive myself. Never let your past rule your life.

  • Many people are driven by resentment and anger.

“Resentment always hurts you more than it does the person you resent.” I don’t dwell on the negatives because it won’t do you well. Always accentuate the positives and burn the negatives. Let go of whatever happened to your past. Learn from past experiences. Have no room for regrets.

  • Many people are driven by fear.

I decided to live my life without any fear as I don’t want to hinder myself with all the possibilities just because I am afraid to take chances.

  • Many people are driven by materialism.

I am definitely guilty of this. I’ve got goals I want to achieve. Having a car is one of my ultimate plans as of the moment because I want to go on roadtrips and be in places I haven’t been. I wanted to earn more so that I will buy whatever I wanted to buy and be wherever I want to be. I am materialistic perhaps, a wanderer, a person driven by his goals. I am aware that money won’t bring me permanent happiness because I am still a believer that the best things in life aren’t actually things. I remind myself that my value is not actually based on what I have monetarily but who I am as a person. Real security is our own relationship with our Creator and not just money.

  • Many people are driven by the need for approval.

“Those who follow the crowd, get lost in it.” Do what your heart screams for and be a person who lives his life according to other people’s expectations. Seriously, you are living such a sad life if you let the expectation of others define you. You are living on someone else’s shadow. I promised myself that I will never ever let anyone control my life. I did not exist to fulfill the expectation of others. I won’t let you or anybody else define me, your opinions won’t define me.

Without a purpose, life is motion without meaning, activity without direction, and events without reason.”

 

A life without a defined purpose is the greatest tragedy of all. It is existing for nothing. If you’re still lost, keep on asking God to lead you the way to greatness. Never stop on hoping that someday your life finally makes sense and that you exist for greater good. Keep going! Keep on believing! Never cease on asking God!

“God… is able to do far more than we would ever dare to ask or even dream of – infinitely beyond our highest prayers, desires, thoughts or hopes.”

Knowing our purpose has its own benefits. It gives us meaning. It simplifies our own life as we know what we will prioritize the most .It gives us the sense of balance to live our life by focusing more on what really matters making our lives a little lot effective. Prune away those activities that don’t do you well.

You can be busy without a purpose?What’s the point?”

Our purpose helps us in motivating ourselves because it produces passion. It drives us each day because we are loving what we are doing. Lastly, if we live a life with purpose it actually prepares us for eternity. I always tell myself that I need to please God when I die. The greatest pride is to hear him say, “Very well, my child. You lived your life according to my plans. You may now enter the kingdom as I’ve waited long to be with you again.”  I need to change my belief about living to leave a legacy on earth because I know my existence will then be forgotten.

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03/16 – Day 2: You Are Not An Accident

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A poem by Russell Kelfer as published in the book sums up Day 2 of my Purpose Driven Life journey:

You are who you are for a reason.

You’re part of an intricate plan

You’re a precious and perfect unique design,

Called God’s special woman or man.

 

You look like you look for a reason.

Our God made no mistake.

He knit you together within the womb,

You’re just what he wanted to make.

 

The parents you had were the ones he chose,

And no matter how you may feel,

They were custom-designed with God’s plan in mind,

And they bear the Master’s seal.

 

No, that trauma you faced was not easy.

And God wept that it hurt you so;

But it was allowed to shape your heart

So that into his likeness you’d grow.

 

You are who you are for a reason,

You’ve been formed by the Master’s rod.

You are who you are, beloved,

Because there is a God!

Day 2 of my 40-day journey to get closer to God is actually my favorite topic. It reminds me that I am not an accident. It is a touching realization knowing that God planned everything, he planned me even if my parents did not plan me at all. God planned me and I am blessed because his love is unfathomable yet fundamentally reliable. He made me into who he intended me to be and I am happy being me. I used to feel insecure about myself even considering my life to be a little dysfunctional but I guess as years pass by I have grown into a more mature and self-aware individual. I love myself despite my weaknesses and insecurities, it took me an ample amount of time to fully embrace myself and turn my weaknesses into opportunities to be better. I thank God again for leading the way.

We need to be constantly reminded that we are here for a reason, reasons we don’t totally understand but we don’t need to question God’s plan. We are here with a purpose, time will unravel everything. In the future, our past will finally make sense and we will all be thankful that God intricately shaped us into someone he wanted us to be. Indeed, things that are happening to us didn’t happen by chance, it was all planned out even if sometimes we believe in chances and in fate. We just didn’t know that sole fact – that nothing in our lives were arbitrary.

I thank God for loving me as his child. I thank him because he planned me. I thank him because he is a merciful and loving God. Love indeed is the essence of his character and we should always, always remember that.

Love yourself because you are a symbol of God’s love. Albert Einstein once said: “God doesn’t play dice.

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03/15 – Day 1: It All Starts With God

I decided to change, well made myself a little empowered rather than killing my time weeping over characters with tragic fate or if not cheesy love stories I wish I have. Yesterday, I was looking for a good book until I bumped into Rick Warren’s Purpose Driven Life. I already read the book and even opted to share it with a friend who shared it to her church which I know served them well. It’s about time for me though to fix myself and again find meaning to my existence. It’s about time for me to let God rule my life just like before. I decided to take the 40-day journey again, this time sharing my thoughts to people and my friends.

Day 1: It All Starts With God

“Everything got started in him and find its purpose in him.” Colossians 1:16b (MSG)

God has always been my source of inspiration, my best friend and the divine force that gives me day to day miracles when I needed it the most. I used to write letters to him daily. My journal begins with Dear God wherein I share my thoughts about what have happened to my day. I wrote everything and anything about my own feelings, my frustrations and my pet peeves. I know that after writing I feel better because I was able to share it with HIM.

Today, I pray for me to find my purpose. I know that my goals, all my aspirations and the steps I take are still insignificant as He – our divine creator already planned out how we can be great, how we can be the person he wanted us to be. I am patiently waiting for HIS time as I know that he will unravel my purpose soon. I know he has plans for me and I should not worry because he never failed me. He might be distant, he might always tell me to wait patiently but in the end it’s for my own betterment. I trust God and my life is meaningless without his grace. He is my supreme being, guiding me in every decision that I make because he knows far better than I am.

God, always remind me that I am a nobody and I need you. I know that this life have a lot of temptations to overcome and I get strayed away frequently. I hope you’ll never get tired of finding me, of showing me that I cannot exist without you and of loving me despite me being a sinner. I will let you rule my life by leading me to the right path no matter how painful or challenging it can be. With you, not all paths lead to success immediately as I might need to encounter a lot of detours and a lot of crossroads before reaching it but I must say when things finally unravel according to your plans, it has always been so beautiful and the wisdom to fully understand why it happened makes me feel so blissful. Thanking God has always been a cliché and at the same time an understatement.

I won’t settle, until I find my purpose as what God designed me to be.