I am creating web pages again after like a hundred years — kidding the only difference is I am not doing it for my Web Design subject but just for the sake of doing it to help me out somehow at work. 🙂
Seriously, I remembered how badly I want to be a graphic and web designer back in college but I just feel that I am not competent enough to pursue it as a career after I graduated. I never dream to be a programmer but I do dream to be a designer. I blame my low-tech computer and slow internet connection on why my dreams did not push through. I know it is not too late and that is why I am trying again and this time I will never stop. Maybe a year from now, I will learn a new language — not Japanese or French but I am talking about ASP, JAVA, and Drupal. I will also play around with some useful scripts and again I am not referring to the scripts that our favorite celebrities used to review before their shoot. Anyways, I am just happy. There is that certain kind of joy when my ideas come into life. It’s like an assurance that somehow I am not an epic fail still.
I want to learn more to do more and be more. I am tired of doing same things all over again because that is not me. I hate too much complacency and monotony. My life is more on taking risks, random adventures, learning new stuffs and just a life seeking for happiness and meaning. I don’t need to prove my worth because I don’t care at all. My toughest competitor is myself. I challenge myself to try different things and this time trying to push myself away from my comfort zone. I don’t fret because in every failure there’s a lot of lessons to ponder upon. I don’t live to set people’s expectation – I live because I have a purpose and that is my mission to find my life’s meaning. I don’t live just to exist – I exist because I dared to live.
This time I begin to dream again. 😉
Okay, starting this week I will try to eat something healthy but since I don’t care that much with my calorie intake anymore I decided to spoil myself. Well, thank you to my good friend and previous teammate who supplies us with Chicken chips and chocolate chips cookies — I think I’ll be gaining those fats that I shed for the past 2 weeks again. 🙂
Oh yeah finally I tried Mc Donald’s summer medley floats. It’s refreshing — YES. Well this picture is really more than that…
Let’s talk about summer, not the movie but the time of the year wherein all you want is to chill and run on the sands of the best beaches near you. You definitely have the time to do what you want to do… the freedom from school works, projects and meetings. Well, that was years ago and now I am employed to a company wherein holidays and definitely summer is not a time for us to take a break. It is still work, work and work to meet the business needs of course. Welcome to the cruel world! Oh well… life as we definitely know it.
Anyways, this summer I want to decide into something that will make my life change. Maybe try to make up my mind if I will really take up Master’s degree or not, try to venture out and look for a different career opportunities that will hone my skills and make me the best that I can be and also to be free from all the responsibilities for a week.
Retrospectively speaking, I just want to try something different, my ability is on a par with my ambitions. What I have now is something I can enjoy for the moment but I know this will not last for long. My mind may be into it because I want to excel in everything that I do but I can never cheat my heart. I tried to fall in love with my work but then I am here because I fell for someone. Oh, it did not make sense — just don’t mind me I’m blabbing again. Sorry!
Summer — right.
Day 122 is awesome because of the USLS – CRCY Senior’s Tribute. I salute all the seniors who dared to make a difference, who spent their free time doing worthwhile humanitarian activities all for the love of Red Cross and who never quit despite all the odds. The odds indeed was in their favor though. They surpassed it all victoriously. Thank you to those who were inspired by my impromptu speech. It’s been a while since the last time I gave one but whatever it was that I have said last night, I mean it. All the good memories you had — cherished it and all the struggles you have faced on the way — just smile as you have overcome it. I hope that graduation is not the end of it all. Please do continue to take care of other people and support the causes of the premiere humanitarian organization. I just can’t let go of something so inspiring… who I am today is a product of what I have learned from my past.
This is the start of my summer. The time wherein I am inspired to inspire. Live. Laugh. Love.
P.S.: I’m thinking of an awesome beach trip… WHERE TO? 🙂
Finally, my new happy song.
I love One Direction’s What Makes You Beautiful. I love to listen to it on my way to work just to set my mood.
Quoting some lines: “If only you saw what I can see
You’ll understand why I want you so desperately
Right now I’m looking at you and I can’t believe
You don’t know…”
I remembered I began tweeting about this like a month ago before it hit the market when Raymond Gutierrez began tweeting about it. I am more of a Cornetto lover but of course I won’t deny that I always scream for ice cream as it’s the best pick me upper after a long and stressful day. Anyways, I tried Magnum ice cream for the first time. It is a bit expensive compared to its competitors but I can say that it’s the best treat if your day had been so totally messed up with that you just want a royal treatment. The chocolate coating and the vanilla ice cream inside is really yummy. It is the best source of sudden joy because it is indeed chocolate-y.
Oh well, Cornettos are still irreplaceable in my heart. Magnum is good, let’s eat it just once a month!haha so save up… 😉
As I scan my college yearbook, I was able to see that part of my bucket list is to be a Red Cross Trainer. It’s been one of my dream to be part of a group of individuals who just not train new leaders but inspire them to be the best leader that they can be by motivating them to make use of their potentials and enhanced their skills by participating in worthwhile activities.
By May, there will be a 2 – week long training and due to my kind of work I surely cannot participate. It was hard at first especially to let go of something that you have waited and wanted years ago. I am 22 and that dream was conceived in my mind when I was 15. I always tell myself that if it’s bound to happen then it will be so I guess I’ll just let it go. I know I can never get what I want but who cares, I am still breathing and as long as I am alive I will never stop conceiving dreams. I will never stop myself from being the best person that I can be. I know I am made for something and that something is the one that I am searching. We all seek for a job that we are paid well and at the same time we are happy doing it. I am not saying that my job sucks today but I no longer see myself enjoying it 2 – 3 years from now so I need to look for new opportunities.
Oh well, I’m writing a novel again.
Aha! Bottom line is, I’ll just let this one pass. Whatever may happen, it’s according to God’s awesome plan.
Let it go… let it go.. let it go. 🙂
Oh yeah! I woke up and realized that there’s no electricity due to maintenance therefore I have nothing to do the whole afternoon except to scribble… draw… read… write… imagine things and a lot more to squeeze my creative cells. Anyways, I read Table for Two for the second time and finished it in less than 2 hours. It was really a coffee table book I can surely relate to. I can see myself in Mandy not that I used to have an always late boyfriend but her personality is similar to me. And I quote a line in this book:
” She can well take care of herself. It’s the little things she needs someone for, like someone to hold her hand at the end of a long day, or someone to watch stupid comedies with, or someone to curl up with on the couch on a lazy Sunday morning as she reads the newspaper and eats her cereal. Which probably means she doesn’t “need” someone in the strictest sense, although at the end of a long day or while watching a stupid comedy or even a lazy Sunday morning, having someone would be very much appreciated.”
Sometimes I wonder how many people find each other everyday while sipping coffee in the nearby cafe? How many people become part of one’s life after a short meet and greet moments? How many magical moments happen in a span of a day?
Life is full of awesome stories. Every stranger has its awesome story.
As I usually chill alone imbibing the “I am alone but not lonely vibe”, I see a lot of people, people who has stories to tell, people who are strong enough to live each day no matter what burdens they may be carrying. I just love to study them while I waste my time weaving their “assumed” life stories at the back of my mind. I am a hopeless romantic and imagining cheesy/crazy/random moments is my forte.
Again I quote Marla Miniano on Table for Two:
” When you think about it, everything is fleeting. Every second of every minute of every hour. The race and the rush and the choices and the chances. The love that grazed your fingertips, possibilities that brushed past you on your way out to work or play or save the world, a happy ending you may have believed in with a faith beyond anything you could have imagined you were capable of. We shove each other for space, we lament the loss of time as we scatter it throughout the vast landscape of our lives. When we count the broken pieces, we realize that we will not be here forever, so we chase after these moments, seize them and try to make them last and last and last. But maybe the best we can do is to understand that there is one thing in particular that should always come first”
I can say that today I thought about a lot of things that’s been swimming in my head. I have my own regrets on not telling someone how much he means to me. My resort all the time is to write on my journal and not really expressing my emotions as I am just guarding myself to possible pitfalls.
Some proof of my crazy writing habits — this is where all the words that I supposed to say go. It’s been years that I’ve been doing this… I have more than 10 journals to be proud of as of this date.
Through writing I discovered something that I learned to love over the years TYPOGRAPHY. I still want to create an artwork that is made out of several font types and sizes. I never stopped believing that someday I will be a good graphic designer and that I can create artworks that are eye candy and something that I can surely be proud of. I would be happier if my passion becomes my career and as a bonus I got to share it with others. 😉
One creative Sunday indeed! ♥
PS: If you have read my not so edited post — in this part you were able to see my sample work but when I tried to read it I was able to see that I mentioned his name therefore I removed it or else I am totally screwed. Whew!!!